end
Eventually I did.
I told him I wanted to talk to him and so we felt on Skype video call.
see them again after four months on the screen even if it was unsettling.
I put my heart in my hand, I told him everything he had to say,
I was still in love with him, a thousand arguments about how to resolve the distance, about what I felt for him ....
and finally I said that I do not want more.
is painful even to write it.
Senita so I did not even once in my life.
is so physically painful that I do not see how to get to domanimattina.
really was not so direct and brutal
He said he can not do it to have a long distance relationship and that is I do not want more but do not feel that feeling stronger than before ... that knows ... do not know ... he kept repeating
sbam another blow to the teeth!
I finally did what no one should ever do, I pleaded, I prayed
to return with me, the cycle was starting to feel and then meet again, I offered to take some time to think.
but NOTHING,
then I announced that after closing the call sarabbe gone forever ( "but no I do not say so ") and that I would not have sought ever more ....
did a bit of history but then he said hello and closed.
feel an emptiness inside me that sucks the will to live.
I knew it was an option that he wanted me more and I was ready to accept it.
but it's so bad.
in 4years we never had a holiday together
never get the money or inclination to go three days in camp
has never had the desire or time to get to me when I was alone at the university but also at home .
or do something together when we were both in the same place
has never done anything for me
no momentum.
qusto knowing everything I should be glad it's over, glad I made a point of no return.
and instead just feel the tears fall on my face continuously, and
a monster in his chest that will not let me go.
will never return to me. there will be no more u us.
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