barely two days have passed "by the refusal" and I can not recover.
continue to repeat and repeat all the things that were not, all the grounds for anger and disillusionment that led us to leave twice.
yet I can not resign myself to the person I loved for four years, said that even four months ago to worship and doted on me now I do not want a meeting.
hurts so much.
I never suffered so much for someone.
and think that the only person who could make me feel good is the one that cause me such suffering.
now I'm obsessed, the more I try to rationalize the more my brain continues to plot ways to take it back, to see him, to convince him.
I would call all our friends to ask him to talk ... to convince him ....
I can not resign.
is true I have always complained about him, with others, and also in my blog.
But I never said the things I felt and feel good with him.
that in fact we had made plans together for the future.
even on our hypothetical wedding would be fun with all your friends from high school.
let go of A. It also means leaving a whole part of my life, part of me that will never come back, it was still a teenager, he had to learn so many things.
I try to listen to that little voice inside me that knows that everything will get better, that will pass, that incontreò someone else.
I'm trying with my whole being.
but the only thing that I feel this is chest pain that distresses me and leaves me breathless.
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